gay.

sometimes i wish i could just be deployed right this instant. i fckin hate feeling as tho i've fckd up. but this time i think i fckd up badly. i just sat here and spilled my guts to this dude + in return i receive no text back. whatta bitch idea was it for me?! like, i didn't expect that. i can't stand silence at all + it def just got the best of me. if i could place myself inside a bottle rite now and push myself into the water, i would. hopefully tho i'd end up somewhere close to em. eh, well thats my life + the luck i have.